Swim, a novel by Marianne Apostolides, takes all of
her concerns as a writer and shifts them both in the form and content.
She questions her materials from different angles and new vantages.
In Swim,
the main character Kat is swimming, and most of the novel consists of her
musings while doing laps – her activity is fitting. For at the same time
she swims Apostolides performs some marvelous feats of narrative
experimentation to try and loosen up that trap of language freezing reality, to
get it to swim along too, and not to be so bound by
yhe conventions that make writing, for the authors, such an ambiguous
enterprise.
The new prose
style in Swim is an answer to the problems of the
author’s former books: how to write about the past without trapping it in
amber; how to set the body free: how to give it expression without the
limitations of its flesh. The act of swimming, being suspended in a
liquid medium, comes as close as possible for a fleshed creature. Yet
later we learn that Kat was taught to swim by her father, who wanted her to
swim from her “core” – a problematic enough notion in general, but given Kat’s
difficulties with mind, body, self, even more fraught. The bodily
core is both a danger zone and a place of expression for Kat: it carries hazard
and possibility.
Yet there is
intimations of the problems of language. Kat sees her daughter writing a
letter to her father. Kat explains that she will “She’ll never commit
these thoughts to written words; they will remain perfect, on in her
mind.” We have the problem: words are still best when they remain in
utero. There is a real problem here with expression. What to do?
As if to
answer this, as Kat swims, her stream of thought mirrors this idea that
language, if it must be expressed, should be multivariate. We see this in
the ample use of “/” which often pairs words with similar meaning “physical /
awareness” or completely opposite “done / undone.” For language to have more
meanings, some words must be spilt up into at least two pairs, either to
complement or offset each other. There is also the ample us of the dash
“–“ to suggest the flow of ideas in Kat’s mind, one idea moving to the next,
which connotes rapid shifts in meaning and process. Such as: “– he’s
physically left the place they’d shared where he – other, at home in bed – was
present in bed but gone – to be/away – from self.” Again, we get the sensation
of swiming: language here is a liquid medium, not confined to any one meaning
or fixed location. Rather, it flows from one form to another, often with
a high degree of ambiguity.
Yet another
way language goes through transformation in this work is paradoxical given the
flow theme: the atomizing of words. As Kat swims, she breaks down words
like respect, into its
Latin parts. But this too is done in order to, once more, take language
and make it more fluid, to provide indefiniteness – to get words out of the
trap of their fossilized meaning.
Then there are
the boundaries of the body, yet another theme in Apostolides’ writing. There is
much giving and taking of bodies in Swim,
from birth to sex and everything in between. But the body undergoes a
profound change from her other books. It is more permeable, more a
membrane than a skin. Kat has the incredible urge to scream in the water,
not outwardly, but inwardly “a scream as a suck of water” an amazing image,
both possible and impossible. The body wants to burst its closures,
nearly… to become more than this fleshed-thing bound by all kinds of dead
ends. Kat wants an oceanic feeling – the ability to strip away the
falsehood of everything, hidden in bodies, minds, and language. As she
contemplate her failing marriage, this wonderful cascade of images of exposure
appears:
She wanted –
she thinks. She wanted– like the goring of her cunt by his cock – she wanted
some confrontation: some grapple with the covered now. She wanted to
shout the problem – her betrayal, his depression, her hatred of this, her lost
(complete) of belief in trust and faith in him / her / them – and love
and honour and family / vows. Her loss of self as she’d defined: a woman
/ mother / wife, not tainted by the lingering smell of want.
The goring
image is strong, disturbing. And as it leads to the cascade of items, all
bad and tinged with sorrow. A lingering small of want. All that
stuff, all that those feelings and senses hidden by the “covered now.”
Marianne
Apostolides accomplishes much in 93 pages. Swim radiates great struggle, yet it finds,
in certain moments, a way around them. The form of the novel and its
narrative texture – work in perfect tandem. Toward the end, Kat’s
daughter and the young Greek man struggle to name a butterfly before it flies
away. They simply name it butterfly in Greek – a hint that Greece and
thinks Greek, with all its problematic history for Kat, still has much to
offer. Kat knows that her daughter would not be paying attention to a
butterfly if it was not “held in this man’s hand” But best of all is her
daughter’s experience of “purity of wonder – her joy at sensing the unnamed possible.”
After a novel
that is obsessed with definition in language, human life and relationships and
history, we get “a purity of wonder” a “joy at sensing the unmade
possible.” These few words almost overthrow the whole course of the book
– they are, really, the simple sense of reality that eludes Kat, but that she
can see in her daughter. The novel ends with a hint of hope.